Bottom Of The Barrel

Bad Day

I knew this day was coming for the past 7 weeks and yesterday it finally arrived. I was feeling down and depressed, almost to the point of anger. It was one of those days where you know your in a bad mood but can't [and frankly don't want to] get yourself into a better place. My wife told me this is what PMS feels like.

At 1:30 the layoffs began and as I sat with the first guy I was letting go I suddenly had a rush of anxiety like you feel at a wake. Where no words come to mind and you feel like anything you do say to try and ease the person into this loss - it feels like it is only lip service and nothing I can say will be right or be helpful. An hour later I was finished and in the end the two gentlemen I have to let go made it as easy on my as I could have hoped for - no yelling or tears or accusations or anything like that. Just stoic nods over all the paperwork and a hearty handshake as they left the building.

I knew getting a management job and have a team report to me would have it's own stressers I had not had to endure as an individual contributor, but acting as the messenger in a job consolidation was one I was not fully prepared to handle. Let's just hope that this is an activity I do not have to be part of again for a very long time.

Labels: Work

posted by TheWino @ 10:43 AM